I began writing about this woman of mine in the early stages of us. If one took time to read through my blog, beginning in January of 2014, he/she will find my heart pouring out its love for this awesome and amazing gift from God. One would see the relief and redemption my soul finds in her. I am very expressive of my feelings at times, and ones with the right eyes and ears can easily learn so much about my life, my trials and much more through reading what I write. I am truly blessed to be able to call this astonishing treasure, my wife.
We go through life, often wanting and seeking something like something else. We want relationships like this or that. We want marriages like his and hers. So forth and so on, we go about life wanting "like" things. What if I told you that you were like no other? What if I told you that it is impossible for you to have the "like" things you seek and desire, and be happy? You'd probably think I'm crazy right? Well, think about it. If you are like no other, then why seek and strive to be like or to have like others. If you are truly like no other, would it not make sense to accept that anything you have or anything that you are meant to be and have will be like no other? The only way to know what is truly meant for you is to consult the Maker of you heart. God has very specific, unique, and customized plans for each and every one of us. So, to want anything not meant for you, according to God's will, is to limit His ability to work marvelous things into your life.
In my post titled, "Does The Fork Ever Come Back.......?", the question of second chances was addressed. In our case, this was a fourth chance for me. This woman who I met at Bugsy's after the Xavier/Dillard game on January 28, 1995 still had sway in my chest. My heart has ALWAYS been at home with her. Given my history of haste when it comes to relationships and marriages, and my full acknowledgement of that, we took it slow, flying under the radar for over a year before introducing the monkeys to the mix. Yet, my heart could not contain it's love for this woman, and this fantastic thing between us. So, I wrote many posts throughout 2014, alluding to us, but in ways "we" could not be proven in a court of law, so to say,
As we grew deeper and deeper; stronger and stronger, I began to realize that God intended this. For it is unlike ANYTHING I've ever had or experienced. This Love can only come from God! Realizing what we have now, I know for a fact that every "I love you" spoken prior to Crimesha was hollow and without ground. I knew not what I was doing or saying. I've learned a new language with her that only she and I know, can speak, and understand. I am her and she is me. THIS is what God intends for each of us, if we allow HIM to do the work and leading, and guiding. Too often, we go into relationships, wanting to be like folks we know, like what we see on television or in movies, like what people say and accept, or like the things society encourages and promotes. Why not take a chance with God? Let Him show you your "like no other". All it takes is a heart and spirit, tuned into and obedient to His. Our meant relationships are not much different from our DNA. They are very distinguished and cannot be cloned. What God's Will is for you is yours, and yours only. No one else can have it. I am grateful that I have finally met this level of spiritual maturity and that I finally listened to my heart and the whispers God placed there. I am grateful that the fork in the road came back. I now have something like nothing I've ever had. I treasure it. I cherish it. I thank God for it.
This woman right here.......
Bryan Hollomon Williams