A Sweetwater 420
My mind went there
I think, I thought, I thunk!
Lord, as my heart swells with emotion and love for my kids, give me the days! They are growing older every day, so fast that I can't even remember clearly their younger years. Lord, give me the days; enough that I may see them as adults. Give me the days, my God, that I may, one day, hold their newborn children in my arms. They are my babies, Lord, and no one knows better than you my true love and concern for them. The same love that You say, oh Lord, can never be separated from us, I have for them. NOTHING shall keep me from my youngans in times of need. Thank You Lord for being the prime example of what a father should be. Thank you, God, for being everything to me and all I ever truly need. Give me the tools, the power, strength, and endurance to be EVERYTHING for my children. Bless us, Lord, as we Spec 6 on!! Thank you for your favor!! I love You Lord! I thank You, Lord, for all that you've done, do, and will ever do for me, my help meet, and our children. You have shown me so much of You, in this past year God, and I am ever grateful. Forgive me for my past impatience and impulsiveness! Taking it slow and easy is way more awesome and fulfilling! THANK YOU, LORD!! AMEN!!
Accountability, people, is what too many of us lack in the world today. Consistency, is another. I had a talk with my eldest daughter the other night and consistency came up. I asked her to think about all the things I have said to her since she could remember, all the answers I've given to repeated questions, and all the lessons I've tried to teach. Then, I asked, "What is one thing that you can say about them all?" Her response, "They are always the same." Parents, believe it or not, our children keep us accountable.......ONLY if you truly care for them. There are too many parents who are selfish and who only want to be involved with their kids when there is some type of benefit wrapped up in it. It sickens my stomach to see it. It angers me to see it.
Just last night, in a dream, I fought a man who was a sorry husband and father. He refused to accept responsibility for himself. It was always someone else's fault as to why he failed in his roles. It got to a point I could not take anymore, so I beat him as badly as I could. Just a dream y'all. Calm down. I felt kinda like Rick from the Walking Dead in the next to the last episode of the most recent season. Man was created in God's image and likeness. So, when I see deadbeat fathers and sorry husbands, it is disgraceful. WE were not made to be such. It is an absolute CHOICE to suck in these positions. The same goes for women. YOU were not created to be terrible mothers or horrible wives!! It's just that simple. So, when you suck, by choice, at being a mother, father, husband, or wife, there WILL be people who are disgusted by you. If you never wanted kids, or you desire not to have them, then don't sleep around! If you choose to be sexually involved, then get fixed! We don't need reproduced you's in the world. Parents are teachers and in order to teach, you would have to have learned something, matured, and earned some credentials! But if you choose to live only for you, never learning anything, never taking responsibility or being accountable for yourself, DON'T MAKE BABIES!! YOU HAVE NOTHING TO TEACH, other than how to be you. Again, we don't need you's, in mass numbers!! GEEZ!! This world needs better!! If anyone is offended by anything I am saying, I have one simple question......."WHY?" Offense is often a result of conviction. My Baby and I talk about it all the time, how we will never understand the minds and doings of certain individuals. Why? Because we are NOT THEM, NOT THOSE TYPES OF PEOPLE, NOT SORRY!
Last night, the term "help meet" came to mind. Actually, it came to heart. It struck me in a way that my soul stirred and directed me to scripture. I thought to myself, "I've never understood what a help meet was until now. I never had one until now. Blessed, I am, right now! One of the things I've always wanted for my kids is a great example of what a good relationship is and looks like. Based on their responses to the leaders of Spec 6, I'd say that they have that now. I'm glad!! When it's right, it's right. The world takes on a new light. For years, I'd been trying to stuff squares into round holes. God looked down on me at some point and said, "Bryan, you stoopid!" He handed me a cylinder, the same one he put in my hand 20 years ago, and said, "Try this one." And the light bulb comes on, as God simply shakes His head and nudges me on. BLESSED, this path has been every since!!
Our #1 baby girl is in Ohio now, with her Winterguard team, and I miss her so much! I ask that you all keep them in your prayers, that they be successful, safe and return home on Sunday, all fine and dandy. Man, she'll be 15 in less than two weeks!! I'm trying y'all but I cain't take it!! Next thing you know, Jolee, Homie, Boss, and Bambino will all be trying to be grown and doing their own things!! UGH!! BOOOOOO!! HISSSSSSSS!!! BOOOOOOOOO!!! LMBO!! But hey, when that time comes, I'm cool with just relaxing on the porch with my Front Porch Girl.......
I think, I thought, I thunk
A 2nd Sweetwater 420
My mind went there
I think, I thought, I thunk!
GOOD NIGHT!! I LOVE YOU ALL!! TAKE CARE AND BE THE BEST YOU, YOU CAN BE!!!