For many years of my younger life, I struggled to truly understand my father. A man of few words when it came to his deeper parts, he left a young man like me to assumption. I have to admit that my father and I hardly ever saw, clearly, eye to eye throughout my teenage and early adult years.
In 2005, he and I met for dinner and conversation at Copeland's, at the corner of Airport & Hillcrest. That night, I felt I didn't gather what I desired from him, but there was one thing he said, in reference to some of the things of which I sought understanding. Dad simply said, "Keep on livin!" Over the few years that followed, I began to see and grasp understandings of so much stuff. As a man, as a father, as a husband, a lot began to make sense. Time and experience is what I needed most, to gain the grasp I felt I was missing.
As I look at my kids now, and see me, so deeply rooted in them, I think of what it is that has helped me to understand my father most. The more I have gotten to know my own heart and self, I've gotten to know my father. He is me and I am him, in SO MANY ways. Seeing him in me and how I responded to him in my early years, helps me to understand why folks respond to me the way that they do.
Knowing how I love, protect, and will inflict serious harm on anyone who comes against my kids, I KNOW my Dad has always been that way about my brothers and I. They say that "the proof is in the pudding" and sometimes you have to "read between the lines." I agree that my father and I are so much alike in this way. To truly know our hearts will take work on the parts of the curious ones. You have to know how to read!! LOL!
Just so you know, Dad, I have actually listened and carried with me, A LOT of the things you've said and taught me in my life. I am grateful that YOU are my father. My being the father I am today, has so much to do with what I've observed of you over my short span of life. It also has a great deal to do with the you that resides in me, by the works of God Almighty.
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DAD!! I LOVE YOU, MAN!!!!
Bryan Hollomon Williams