How could I NOT want to be EVERYTHING for them? How could I NOT be willing to change my life for them? How could I NOT be willing to turn my back on the entire WORLD for them? How could I NOT exhaust my every resource for them? How could I NOT be willing to do WHATEVER it takes to be with them? How could I NOT put myself on the back-burner for them? How could I NOT want to know their little hearts and what they desire? How could I NOT pierce my own pride and do what it necessary for them? How could I NOT put my selfish wants aside to give them all that they need?
HOW COULD I NOT?? HOW COULD I NOT?? HOW THE HELL COULD I NOT TAKE THIS TASK AS SERIOUSLY AS I TAKE MY VERY LIFE?? HOW COULD I NOT TREAT THESE BLESSINGS AS GIFTS FROM GOD AND CARE FOR THEM AS SUCH??
THE ONLY PLACE, IN RAISING CHILDREN, FOR "SELF" IS IN MAKING SURE THAT YOUR "SELF" IS PHYSICALLY, MENTALLY, EMOTIONALLY, AND SPIRITUALLY HEALTHY ENOUGH TO TAKE ON THE TASK! DADS GOTTA EAT TOO, RIGHT?? BUT DADDY WILL GO WITHOUT A BITE IF IT MEANS THE KIDS' BELLIES ARE FULL!!
Enough said.............I think!!
HAPPY HUMP DAY Y'ALL!! I LOVE YOU ALL, EACH AND EVERY ONE!!!
This morning, I received a path of scripture. In these verse are found those whom I value the most in this life; that which I am called to love, to cherish, to protect with all my life.
This is what He said:
“The Son of Man must suffer many things and be rejected by the elders, the chief priests and the teachers of the law, and he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life. Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the duty of all mankind. Do not turn to the right or the left; keep your foot from evil. Ask the LORD for rain in the springtime; it is the LORD who sends the thunderstorms. He gives showers of rain to all people, and plants of the field to everyone. But whoever drinks the water I give them will never thirst. Indeed, the water I give them will become in them a spring of water welling up to eternal life. You were bought at a price; do not become slaves of human beings."
This is what I heard:
"You have your mission! It is your duty to fulfill it. Stay focused and keep your mind right! I have and will always provide all your needs. You will be of great use to Me, and My Will. Now Bryan, I AM the only Master you are to concern yourself with!"
You never know that your toes are in the way, until they are stepped on. Conviction is what we call it, when someone calls us out, makes us uncomfortable, and puts us on the defensive when making a claim of moral truth that we are not necessarily subjecting our lives to. I've seen people walk out of church, after hearing a preacher preach that God loves homosexuals just as much as He loves everyone else. I've heard of a pastor receiving hate mail from his republican sheep for allowing a democrat to have function at their church.....a black, 1st Lady democrat, at that.
I'm sorry!! Any time you put your funky little toes of ignorance, hate, politics, racism, homophobia, etc out in the open, those little busters WILL get smashed by the Truth. I wanted to say something other than "busters" there but I will refrain from subjecting you all to the Sofa King's version of my thoughts. LOL!
Anyway, people sometimes just upset me. There are days when I just don't like people in general and try to avoid human contact and conversation to the best of my ability. Well, what other conversation are you gonna have, Bryan? Actually, Myself keeps me good company. He tends to understand me most. We tend to be on the same page about EVERYTHING! I remember asking Myself one day, "Myself, what's the deal with people today??" Myself said, "Bryan, folks are just all over the place!"
He continued, "A lot of people are living reactionary lives. They are living in reaction to something of their past. They've based their entire lives on something that went wrong years ago. They are judging everything based on that one thing. Their minds have not grown or matured passed that one thing. Others are just plain selfish, Bryan, only out to get what they want for themselves. They care not about who they use and hurt to get it. Selfish people suck, Bryan. They really do. Taking is their profession! Oh, don't let me get started on the hypocrites, Bryan, because I've known you to fall into that category a time or two. I can honestly say that I can stomach a hypocrite easier than I can a selfish person, but I'd rather not have to deal with either! Hey, Bryan, I know you like to distance yourself from all these types of folks because of their flaws, but what about yours? Oh, OURS??!! You know as well as I what Jesus said about loving others as we love ourselves.........."
"OOOOH BURRRNNN!!!", as my son, Davyd, would say. I done stepped on my own toes!! But mine aren't that funky!! LOL! I love you all and you all may think I am a little special in the brain, but y'all love me still and I appreciate every bit of your love.
If only we hitch up behind truth, we'd spare our toes any and all smashing. Truth rolls and over anything that stands as an obstacle or adversity. It tends to convict easily. When your toes is stepped on, do you not immediately snatch it back to a safe place. The only safe place for them is found in Truth, honesty with oneself. When you see Truth coming at you, ACCEPT it, along with any correction that it dictates.
HAVE A GREAT AFTERNOON Y'ALL!! I GOT NOTHING BUT LOVE FOR YOU ALL!!!
Sin. What is it to you? Is it only the things you say the Bible says? In previous relationships, I've learned that some sin is defined by the individuals involved with, or committed to, one another. A friend of mine, years ago, was baffled by his wife's attitude toward him concerning things he felt were harmless and could not Biblically be defined as sin. This dude was ready to call it quits. I remember telling him, "In order for it to work, you have to allow your wife to define some sin."
Think about it. If my mate states that she is not comfortable with me hanging out in certain environments, then my best option would be to respect that. Yes, she trusts me. No, I've done nothing to lead to a lack of trust. She, my mate, whom I love with all my heart is just uncomfortable with it. So, if I choose to go to that place and hang out, it's sin against her. She asked me not to, but I did it any way. Are you following me?
Yes, you all are "grown ass men and women" and can do what you want, BUT if you do not respect the hearts of those you say you love, then do you TRULY love them?? Selfishness is a major murderer of so many relationships. None of us are perfect. This is one of the FIRST things we should recognize and realize when going into any relationship. We all come with scars, weaknesses, flaws, and insecurities. These things MUST be brought to the forefront in the BEGINNING, and NOT after the reception, NOT after the honeymoon, and definitely NOT after the kids!!
To disrespect your mate, is to sin against him or her. To violate the trust of your mate, is to sin against her or him. To take lightly, his or her heart is sin. There are those who disagree, but why? Some folks like to abide in a face value interpretation of the Bible because it makes it easier for them to live half-heartedly. Let me say it this way, for those who may be confused by their very own interpretations and justifications for living less than their best in their relationships, marriages, and commitments:
1. "A new command I give you, LOVE one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another." -John 13:34- Yeah, Jesus said it. How exactly did HE love us?? His love for us never disrespected us! His love for us never violated our trust! His love never took lightly our hearts! That's BIBLE!!!
2. "Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.............Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me" -Matthew 25:40 & 45- I was in need, and you either did or you didn't. I needed your respect, you didn't give it. I needed to trust you, but you didn't care. I needed you to know my heart, but you took no interest. These are the things that your spouse, your mate, your significant other is saying as you stand, dumb-looking, while they are giving you heat about your doings, your whereabouts, your indiscretions.
I'm just saying.......
A friend and I were talking this morning about past relationships, our issues, and our own flaws and doings. A lot of times we look at ourselves as though something is wrong with US, when relationships fail, but the truth of the matter is this: NOT EVERYONE IS MEANT TO "GET" YOU!! We suffer relationship issues when we try to make work, the unworkable! We try to mesh what is not "meshable"!! We try to bond what cannot be bonded! If it's NOT by God's design, then eventually, it will fail. We bring things together, claiming that it's God's doing, when in reality it's us, justifying what even we are not fully certain of, deep down inside.
I remember doing a simple experiment as a kid. I filled a bowl with water. Then I sprinkled black pepper into the water. Of course the pepper floated on top. After that, I dipped a bar of soap (Amway soap) into the center. The pepper immediately scattered to the edges of the bowl. WOW! Now, you are the pepper, and the soap is any doubt or red flags that enter your heart as you consider going into any commitment. If you can't BE YOU, then it's not a good idea to continue.
I think that's it for now Y'all!!
HAPPY TUESDAY!! I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU MONKEYS!!!
You sent me a postcard from where you were. Paradise is what it seemed. All I could do is imagine myself living there. Then you sent another, and another, and another. My imagining became a desire to be there. By whatever means, I was determined to be there with you, in the portrait of paradise you painted. My course was plotted and in due time I made it there! It was awesome and beautiful. I was on cloud nine EVERY DAY! Then, I began sending the same postcards to my friends and family, telling them I was alright.
Suddenly, almost overnight, the season went from Spring to Winter, with sub-freezing temperatures. It is then, that you bothered to tell me that this place only experiences two seasons, Spring and Winter. Furthermore, Spring only lasted for three weeks. My initial response was, "I can ride it out. I can make it down here just fine." After only a few of these seasons, I reminded myself of where I'm from. Southern by the Grace of God, I'm used to southern warmth and simplicity; southern selflessness.
I'm sailing home to the place I truly love, the Country where my heart truly desires to be.
You painted me this:
But you showed me this:
The pictures we paint.......
Whenever we heard Lion-O say, "SWORD OF OMENS, GIVE ME SIGHT BEYOND SIGHT!", we knew that Lion-O was about to be privy to some stuff going on far, far away, beyond natural sight. Think about the actions that would take place after seeing the impending danger or friends in trouble. What would drive a person to act on such a thing?? I say Faith or trust that the Sword of Omens is not "B-essin" about what it has shown.
Now, look at your own personal sight beyond sight as a parent, a spouse, manager, teacher, preacher, whatever. We all have the ability to see certain things before they happen. I want to apply this post to those things we see for our own future, what and where we want to be. We often see these things clearly, especially when it is a true heart desire. Unaccompanied foresight is just a dream that flees when we awaken. Foresight, accompanied by Faith & Action, will increase the chances of, if not guarantee, that vision becoming a reality.
When our discernment (Thanks Tracey) shows us clearly what lies ahead, we are left with a choice. Do we trust & act? Or do we simply consider it an imagination or unattainable dream and remain in our current states of dissatisfied, mediocrity, and misery?
HAPPY FRIDAY Y'ALL!! I LOVE YOU ALL, EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YA!!!
This was a question often asked of us by the parents of new friends and acquaintances when we were younger and out and about playing in different neighborhoods and such. I don't hear it much in this day and age, but I think I may bring it back full force, and often, as Taylor enters high school, making new friends, and calling herself having a bwahfriend! Yeah, "WHO YO DADDY IS BWAH (Machete in hand of course)!!" LOL!
The purpose of this question back in the day was to check your relation. What family do you come from. Is your family known to be of good folk?? Or is your family THAT family of the neighborhood?? Are their sons and daughters worthy enough for my sons and daughters? Who people are kin to was how many folks were judged back in the day and still are to an extent today. We call these folks our relatives, right?
Now, let's look at the word "relative." Relative, as a noun, is a person connected by blood or marriage. Think about who you are and where you come from. Think about the fact that your family's blood flows through your very veins. KNOW that there are traits in you that may come from someone 4, 5, 10 generations ago. Your blood defines your relation to EVERY ancestor your family has.
The definition of "relative" as an adjective is this: considered in relation or in proportion to something else. We all stand "in relation" to all that surrounds us. Would you agree or disagree?
When we look at the stories of the New Testament, the "believers" and such, we see a movement. We see a movement in a direction of unity under a common belief and a common command of love. Brothers and Sisters, the bottom line is that we are ALL related. We all are relatives. How is it that we, in this day and age live as though God Created multiple bloodlines in the beginning?? This is where my heart goes when I see racial, cultural, political, and all sorts of issues in which we fight to stay separate, different, and apart. It's like me, at some point, telling my son we are not kin because he's dark skint, and I'm light skint. Dumb right?? So, you agree?? It's absolutely stupid of me to think such a thing, right? Seriously, do you agree?? Then, why do we feel it's okay to think this way about ANY BODY!!
We are all kin, and we SHOULD begin to act like it at some point. True, we have no control over what other folks do and believe, just as some of you are calling me crazy now, BUT if there is any change we'd like to see in other folks, we have to first BE what we want to see. If you can't honestly see people of all kinds and colors as your relatives then your compassion is incomplete; your love is not whole; and you are not operating in your full potential. WE ALL have internal work that needs doing. WE ALL need a little open-heart surgery!! I'll be the first on the table!!
I feel like I'm rambling now. I don't think what has been written was part of my initial thought on "relative" but oh well. It is what it is, as we often say.
To answer the initial question: GOD!
I LOVE YOU ALL!! HAPPY THURSDAY!!!!
Imagine placing your food order, as you always do, looking forward to that awesome and delicious #4 (Turkey Tom, add onions, dijon mustard, cheese, & cucumbers), along with chips and a large diet coke. You can already taste that sammich and feel it being washed down by that tasty, TASTY beverage. The driver arrives with your food, and speaks jibberish because all you can hear in your mind is the crunch of those fresh cucumbers and onions. I get to my desk, excited, and realize he didn't bring my DRANK!!!! He gave me the straw, but NO DRANK!! A bit agitated, I called Mr. Jimmy to let him know he shorted me on my ICE COLD, LARGE DIET COKE!! I refused to take one bite until I had MY DRANK!!
Can you feel my upset?? I mean, can you FEEL me??!! Good!
Now think about what we do as parents when we practice that "because I said so approach" to raising our youngans. Yes, the "why's" can get flat out annoying but when we dish out orders without good reason or without giving some idea of a why, we hand our kids straws with no drank. Just as I got agitated with Mr. Jimmy, our kids get to feeling some kinda way about us as they get older. They may even resent us later on down the line for ill-prepping them for their futures. The "why" might be the very thing that pulls them away from drug addiction, stealing, violence, and all sorts of things that plague our youth these days. YOU NEVER KNOW!
All I'm saying is GIVE 'EM THE DRANK, along WITH the straw!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!!
My reach does not extend THAT far. My power is limited, just as my patience. If you allow me to be your friend, then I will be the best you've ever had. If you choose to make me your enemy, just know that I only operate at the ends of the spectrum; either, or; in, out; good, bad.
So, if you get too big for your britches and dive off that cliff, forgetting all that you are, then understand fully that my reach does NOT extend THAT far.......
There ain't much anyone can do for the idiot that finds fascination in fooling with the hornets' nest, UNLESS we are willing to be painfully tagged over and over again. That's why it's always good to know exactly who you are dealing with. When it's the fool, you know what protections you need to place around your camp.
I don't think the reach of any wise man or woman will extend into the sting radius of the hornets' nest.
I'm just sayin.......and venting.......
I remember yet another time at Starbucks, years ago, when another regular spoke to me. We had seen each other several times before this day. She'd come in, grab her coffee, doctor it up, and be on her way. I'd usually be at the table near the "doctoring up station", reading or writing. Most days we'd make eye contact, nod "good morning" and the day goes on. On this particular day, we happened to be "doctoring" at the same time. She says, "You know? You remind me of my son Peter." "Really?", I responded. "Yeah, he's always studying his Bible and he works with the youth at his church." The conversation went on for a few minutes and as usual, we went on with our separate days and lives.
When I sat down to do my reading, I decided to go to the character profile of Peter, in my Bible. If you know me, then you know that I tend to believe that all things happen for specific reasons, and I am always willing to dive into the deep to find the reasons, if at all possible. So, I looked at Peter to find any similarities between us. Guess which one jumped out at me! Yes, "IMPULSIVE"!! "Yep", I thought to myself. I am very impulsive at times and I ain't afraid to admit it.
Looking at decisions I've made in my past, I know and can admit that many have been on impulse, lacking necessary thought. We all have done it from time to time, said stuff we didn't really mean, acted out in ways beneath us, and even ended relationships before they could get off the ground. I often wish I were more confident in myself back in the day, to move forward with what my heart said was right, rather than reacting impulsively to the first sign of adversity. I've come to learn that when right is being done, wrong will always show up in attempt to steal the show.
The impulsiveness in me will always be in me, but with the other aspects I've discovered within me, I've found a needed BALANCE. I thank God for the humility and balance He has placed in my life. My anchor to the ground has been made stronger in the past few months, so that my thoughts don't carry me too far off course. Like the line between the yin and the yang, the dragon and the tiger, there is peace. It is an awesome place, a place where God says, "I'm here"!
Years ago my impulsiveness took me into learning Taoism and away from my Catholic upbringing and away from God, so I thought. Believe it or not, Taoism brought me closer to God than any american church ever had. No, I am not trying to tell anybody where to go or what to do. Please don't use me as your excuse to step away from anything you currently believe, ESPECIALLY if you know for a fact that your mental capabilities have not experienced any waters beyond ankle deep. What I am saying is that I believe all things happen for very specific reasons and God used an unusual course of action to truly get my attention. In other words, He was not going to get through to me by means of any rituals or traditions that I was used to.
Another point is this. Impulsiveness is often looked at as a flaw in a character's personality, but is it truly a flaw when good is able to come by way of it? I think we all need to spend time looking at our entire selves, the good, the bad, and the ugly. Don't look at the "not so pretty" parts as things you need to remove, but look at them as blunt objects that need sharpening, smoothing, and sanding. Then polish them suckers up and MAKE them work for your good. God will show you how, I'm sure, but you need to invite Him inside.
I did actually meet Ms. Lady's Peter one day, and OMG!! This dude and I could have been brothers for real!! He was a bit more tatted than I, but we looked like the same friggin person!! We shook hands, chatted a bit, and I haven't seen him or his mother since. The reason I find in that one statement, "You remind me of my son, Peter" was for me to recognize myself in someone similar. Look at these similarities and understand that the flaw is not necessarily a flaw. Look deeper to see how it can work for my good. Ultimately, God has created us just the way He wants us to be. We just have to take time to learn why that is and what He wants us to do with it.
HAPPY TUESDAY Y'ALL!! I LOVE ALL OF YA, EACH AND EVERYEST ONE!!!
Bryan Hollomon Williams