"Am I in my lane?" Another one of those things we have to be honest with ourselves about.......
Every heart desires an everything kind of love, a love that is everything to him or her. You all know what I mean, THAT love when your heart is done searching. It's the Love that encompasses your every desire, ALL the things you seek in a mate, soul mate, husband or wife. Such a love is the grandest of grand, most beautiful of beautiful, and the most ABSOLUTE of absolute for you. This Love allows you to live, as you are, NEVER asking you to change or to compromise ANYTHING that makes up the individual of YOU!
God has compromised NOTHING to love us! So, what HE means to be, SHALL be! What fails in this life, are our constant attempts to reinvent the wheel of His Love that was already perfect, prior to His creating us. I've said it several time before, and I will continue to say it. If only we'd allow God to lead us, we'll find THIS type of Love for ourselves. "Fixer Uppers" are the things upon which we settle. We only find that it costs more than love to get what we want out of the relationship. We give up bits and pieces of ourselves, compromise what was never meant to be compromised, and we sacrifice the very legs upon which we stand, to be with an imagination or fantasy.
Honesty with self is where it truly starts. How many of us can WHOLE-heartedly say that God led us into our current relationships? Or that He meant for us to be with the individuals we are currently with? Did we settle? How many red flags did we overlook or ignore, prior to going "all in" with our current significant others? How much of you have you put on the back-burner to make your current relationship a success? Do you sing like you used to sing, dance like you used to dance, write like you used to write, laugh like you used to laugh, think like you used to think or even love like you used to love. There is a difference between growing and loss. I hope you all can catch that because I'm leaving it right there. I'm just asking what I consider to be real questions, that I personally did not truly ask myself or explore prior to two marriages. It makes a difference.
My mind has been stuck on Love, all day today. I think about what I have been through in this arena, and I thank God for the lessons I've learned and am now applying to my life in this area. I thank God for bringing me home to my own heart, where He placed all the answers from the beginning. Country roads, I say, Country roads will always lead me home.
HAPPY SUNDAY Y'ALL!! I LOVE YOU ALL, EACH AND EVERY ONE!!!
The image I see is of a man, standing at the edge of a cliff. He is blindfolded, trembling, and terrified. Worried, he is, that his life will soon be over. There is another man present, sitting at the edge of the cliff, right next to the first man. He sits as though sitting at the edge of a pool with his feet in the water. He's at peace, and basking in the Sun, taking in the grandeur of all he sees from such a high point. What on earth does this represent? I'm so glad you asked!
The man standing is ME! The man sitting, is God! Over the past few months, the spotlight has been on my Faith. Heart and Mind, battling against one another is never a good feeling, and is never something that should be allowed to go on for too long. Faith is a choice we make before leaving the house every day. In this particular case, I was leaving mine at home and wearing a blindfold instead, failing to see God all around me, even sitting next to me as I approached my decided end. LOL! Yeah, "decided end"! We, humans, can often decide things for ourselves that God NEVER intended. THAT subject matter is a book in itself! Anyway, just in the last week, I've chosen to put a little more Faith in my pocket as I left for work each day. Even while at work, amidst all sorts of adversity and evil spirit, I'd take out a bit of my Faith, enough to put a smile on my face and enough for others to see they have NOTHING on me. Wednesday, I took the blindfold off completely, only to see God sitting there, looking back at me. He said, "I was wondering when you were gonna quit all that playin around!!"
He asked, "Have you fallen?" "No", I answered. "Then, why are you worried about a fall?", He replied. I sat down next to Him and we talked. He suggested that I take a look at all the my sight could reach from such an elevated place. Beautiful, Grand, Huge, Amazing, I thought, as I silently soaked in all His Creation. After a little while, God simply stated, "I RUN THIS!"
Allowing myself to worry, as much as I did, I feel ashamed. KNOWING all the things that God has brought me through, worry should not be an option. Nor should it be in my vocabulary. "Fear" and "worry" are blindfolds, preventing us from seeing even our own pasts. Fear and worry magnify our opposition, but we have got to respond as David did, in 1Samuel 17:45, "You come against me with sword and spear and javelin, but I come against you in the name of the Lord Almighty.......!"
I guess I'm just thinking out loud.
HAPPY FAITHFUL FRIDAY Y'ALL!! I LOVE EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU!!!
Bryan Hollomon Williams