This passed weekend, I had to opportunity to visit the home town of my Woman. It was a great trip and a great experience. I felt so at home with folks I was meeting for the very first time. I often wish that I'd made a different choice in 1995, that would have allowed me to experience Desoto and Americus way before now. If I had, then I would have been able to meet two of the most important people in my Love's life, "Bubba" & "O". The reality of it all is that I took a different path, which led me to a whole bunch of stuff that ultimately made me the man I am today. Fortunately, God saw fit to open my eyes to my own heart, where someone special has always had a place. After uncovering the debris of dumb decisions and all the dust, dirt and rubble that comes with it, I found my "front porch girl" again.......a dream of which my heart never let go. Long story short, I am grateful for the NOW that God has given us, our kids, and our family. The NOW is what matters most, and the only things of the past that we allow ourselves to bring along are the love and lessons that fuel our hearts and souls. If home is truly where the heart is, then I spent the weekend, at home. I am blessed!
Sunday, we went to church at New Zion Baptist, and it reminded me so much of going to church at Williams Chapel with my Grandmother, Aunt Stella, and Uncle Frank. It made me miss Mt. Vernon, AL a good bit. There were a couple of scriptures mentioned in the sermon that had new meaning to me, on this particular day, though I've read them many times before.......
"But ye denied the Holy One and the Just, and desired a murderer to be granted unto you......." -Acts 3:14-
Think about the choices we make, as humans. We tend to want what's easy, even if it means denying or turning our backs to what's right and just. Selfish behavior, it is. We are quicker to invited lies into our lives than we are to accept truth. Sometimes, it's simply because we want to be in the flow of things, afraid of standing out or being rejected by the crowd. I'd take external conflict over internal conflict any day! Peace of mind and spirit are of great value. To have it, is to have rest, to have focus, to have endurance. Without it, life is miserable.
Sometimes it is good to simply hold on to your basic morals and high standards. Just because the government or the T.V., or the internet makes it okay, doesn't mean that God is in agreement. Sometimes we think that serving the whims and ways of the world will keep us safe from the world, but in actuality, we're preventing ourselves from the knowing and fully experiencing all the God has in store for us. In light of the aforementioned scripture, choosing anything over God is the choice of death. You will find yourself robbed of the very things that give you life as God intended. Those who live by the world, die by the world. Those who live by the Word, LIVE by the Word!!
"Now a man who was lame from birth was being carried to the temple gate called Beautiful, where he was put every day to beg from those going into the temple courts." - Acts 3:2-
Why not bring the man, in most need, INTO the temple, INTO the Church?? Why do we, ABLE-BODIED, men and women like to leave out the folks who truly need to be brought in and blessed. Ministry is GOD'S work, intended to be done THROUGH us! Imagine the very men carrying this cripple, dressed nicely and HAVING all of that which they need, leaving another to beg for his bare minimum, if that. I've seen it in so many churches in which I've served and been a member, the "haves" taking care of "haves", yet ignoring and frowning upon the "have nots". So many people in our day are left to beg, outside the doors of our churches, in the surrounding neighborhoods of our churches, in the parking lot of our churches, yet NO ONE invites them in. Our excuses maybe that we have no spare change or that we believe that it's a scam. Let's say you're right. Nothing exposes the state of a heart or the truth of one's intent, like an invitation INTO the temple, INTO the Body, INTO the dwelling of our Lord.
If you know the scripture, then you should know the story. What we need most is not money, to survive. We need GOD first and foremost. Through Him, we have it all. We have all we need, our daily bread. To all the Pastors, ministers, and preachers of the world, stop leaving folks at the gate to beg, when you KNOW what is needed and it is as free as the air we breathe.......until the the world decides t regulate THAT along with everything else God gave to us freely.......
HAPPY MONDAY Y'ALL!! TIME TO GO TO WORK!! I LOVE YOU ALL, EACH AND EVERY ONE!!
Well, I had 24 minutes, now I'm down to 23. Anyway, I'm without voice at the moment. THANK MA!! LOL! Yet, my words are very much intact. I think. I think often. I think ALL THE TIME! Some days I feel that I will soon go insane with the amount of non-stop thought, taking place in my mind, especially when I have no catharsis readily available.
I love. I love often. I ALL THE TIME.......believe it or not. My thoughts today have been on all the people and things that I love. Just a short while ago, my Front Porch Companion, reminded me of a love I really haven't thought too much about these days. That love, is my love for trees. As a kid, trees were my safe place, my refuge, my place of peace and thought processing. In a sense, they were to me then what my writing is to me now.
Pause: Got a message that I MUST respond to.......16 minutes.
Okay, the monkeys, I'm always thinking about our monkeys, their well-beings, and their futures. I was thinking about all the late nights with Davyd, who would only sleep when moving. There were nights he would not rest peacefully, until it was time for me to go to work the next day. I recall sitting with him at the dining room table, reading the Books of Samuel to him on many nights/mornings. I remember the nights with Taylor, when she was an infant. Most of those nights we spent in my recliner with her head on my chest, the only place where she found comfort.
I now think about T2 and Mattie, how they've brought new joy and love into my life, at a time when I thought it just couldn't get any better. WOW!! I've never doubted God or any of His ability, but there are times we just can't see what He is able to see for us.
I LOVE MY MONKEYS!!!! 7 minutes.......
My Front Porch Girl, is literally the girl of my dreams. It's like she's the absolute, complete reciprocation of my own heart and soul! Again, God doing things I had never imagined. I LOVE HER DEARLY!!
My mother has been more than amazing for me and my youngans! There are no words to explain how she has shown her love over the years. I am so grateful!!
I LOVE YOU ALL!! WITH ALL THAT IS ME, I LOVE YOU ALL!! 2 minutes.
HAPPY MONDAY TO YOU ALL!! I LOVE YA, EACH AND ERR ONE!!!
1 minute.......gotta go pick up Monkey#1
I dropped Jolee off, a little while ago, at her friend's volleyball game. As I was driving, I realized that the radio had not been on. I've mentioned before that my thoughts can be loud; loud enough to drown out any and all things around me. The image in my head is of me sitting in the middle of the Battle of the Bulge, quietly and unaffected by what's going on. Some may feel I am at peace, but the wars raging in my head on some days are more chaotic than the Baltimore riots. In some moments, I feel that breathing a single word of my mental mayhem will incinerate the entire being of the individual cursed to hear it. Words are so powerful! This, we know. Once we spend them, there is no change. There are no refunds, no replacement plans, no warranties. If America practiced the control of the tongue, we may be better off in some areas.
Anyway, these are the beats of my thoughts, today:
Same love. A relationship cannot be lasting or happy if the involved parties do not share the same love for one another. I've been through enough to be able to speak on this. I've known Jesus Christ long enough to be confident in what I say. Think about it. If the husband loves the idea of the marriage more than anything, while the wife truly loves the heart and soul of the man, then it won't last. For his love does not urge or command that he reciprocates the love of his wife. For his love is more material and material love knows nothing deeper than self. Her love will lead her to not even care about the things he feels are important, for the simple fact that they are material. She is not a material person. So, the love is mismatched and they can't even see it. They could have feelings for one another, love one another tremendously, but only in their type or preference of love.
When the soul of a person is TRULY loved for its essence, the package is made absolutely beautiful to the lover of that soul. It is something that he/she only understands. We like cute couples, right? Well, snatch the covers of cuteness off of these "world-accepted because they look good" couples, and you might find something like oil and water trying to blend or the north end of a magnet trying to make out with another north end. You find more work being done to "appear" than there is work being done to simply "be".
BEAT, THOUGHT, BEAT!!
We all have lived in America long enough, to factually know that fairness has never been first step to any process of establishment. I hate, with a passion, ALL that has gone down since way before Travon Martin. How about when Cain slew Abel, or when Pharoah killed all the babies, or when our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ was crucified, and ALL He EVER did was Love like only God can! YES, the issue of black and white is MAJOR, but all that has gone down on BOTH sides at this point is an issue of EVIL!
In this evil, you find lack of education, prejudice, racism, poor parenting, poor instruction, lack of accountability, ignorance (chosen and natural), tolerance, and a government that ultimately allows it all!! How does the government allow it? By failing to deliver fair and equal justice! When we begin to see such, then we will see better days.
You know, just the other week, my daughter was hanging out around the bus stop after school with other kids in the neighborhood. They've been doing this for years now, hanging out after school, killing time, minding their own business. Anyway, on this particular day, two of the boys get into a heated argument. Some random white man walks up and questions if there is a problem. This random citizen just happens to be wearing a gun. Words are exchanged, and a few of the teenagers are not arguing with the man, questioning why he is even involving himself in their business. Is this the new tactic, random white citizens?? You approach black youth, start some mess, hoping that at some point you get to feeling threatened, so that you can shoot someone's black child?? MY CHILD??? MY CHILDREN??? KIDS I'VE SEEN GROWING UP RIGHT NEXT TO MINE??
True, I feel that once this man was spotted coming in their direction, the youngsters should have walked on into the neighborhood toward their homes. I've advised my child that there is to be NO MORE hanging at the bus stop after school. It's sad that our children are not as safe as they should be, just outside their own homes.......
We've got to teach our children, especially our boys, how to respond and how not to respond in certain situations. The system is looking for any means to destroy our youth. If it can't kill them, it will at least try to scar their records which will ill effect their futures and their becoming the greatness that they have the potential to be.
MOSEY ON DOWN THE BEATING PATH.......
Truth, as the world sees it, is a bit different from how God sees it. Imagine a man, in trouble for stealing. The world says, "thou shalt not steal!" They leave it at that. Yes, that is God's Word, but surface Christians really teach us nothing. Now, God's approach to this man may be something like this, "Yes, you stole, but MY issue is that you doubted my ability to provide your needs, your daily bread." It's similar to my dealings with my kids, who only here the words I speak. Then, I have to give reason why I say what I say, as well as provide examples of consequences. Think about it this way. We can build walls all around us, protecting us from what we feel are all the world's threats. We tend to do this with the simple literal application of God's Word. Building such walls blinds us to any growing army, outside our walls. Understanding the context, the social climate of those living when the Word was written, the issues, people and cultures being addressed by the Word, is like building watchtowers, so that we may see the true threats outside of us. Is that plain enough? I know God is often frustrated by our perversion and misuse of His Word which is key to ALL life. It's like our Savior is stripped down, and sold out on the streets, by the service hour, to the highest bidder.......only for His beauty though.
HAPPY TODAY Y'ALL!!! I LOVE EVERY ONE OF YOU AND PRAY THAT TODAY IS ALL IT NEEDS TO BE AND MORE, FOR YOU, YOUR FAMILIES, YOUR DREAMS, AND YOUR FUTURES.
Bryan Hollomon Williams